Sharon ♥

Happiness isn't a feeling that i would say has occupied me for my entire life, well for the most part of it anyways. But in life, i've quickly learnt there are always changes that occur that can so easily alter how we've previously felt. For me, this change has been love! The simple, yet complex connection between two beings, two souls, but who share the same heart. People say love is the most universal feeling there is, but i beg to differ, this binding of love i share is the most personal and close thing i've ever dwelled myself into. In fact, it's the most beautiful thing i've ever known and to think, im blessed to be sharing this love with the most beautiful girl, well it definitely makes me happy! There is nothing whereby i could possibly compare this level of pure happiness with to which i feel now, due to the love that Sharon gives me! It's this kind of happiness that exalts my every breath, that makes me appreciate everything so much more. It's definitely the finer details in life that genuinely show the greatest strengths! It's the case for our love, something that started off so small but has now grown into the most significant thing in my life! It has whole-heartily changed who i am, that is, into a more loving and happy person! It's this new change of happiness that makes me want to do everything for Sharon! Because, i would not only live for her, but i would most certainly die for her. There is nothing now that stands in our way, for our love, will dominate anything and everything that tries to get in the way. Sharon is the first and only person i've fell in love with, a precious girlfriend who i want to spend eternity with is what makes me happy and i sure hope i make her happy too. Sure enough, one day, i know we will fly, fly together in life, through love, then into death...and to be honest, having the experience to share both ends of the start and beginning, is the biggest privilege i can think in life, for many dont get to share so much with an angel, such as Sharon herself. ♥

Dominance?

I dont understand why men are made out to be the dominate ones in relationships. I mean, that was acceptable back in the 18th century, but it's the 2000's now and it's completely unfair in todays 'modern' society where equality is something being widly introduced. Plus, we already have great unfairness in this world, with things such as poverty and famine tbh and this is something we can easily change so that both men and women, have equal shared status in the relationship. Honestly, to have things to work smoothly, you simply just can not have one person dominating over the other, that just causes controversy and disagreements. Men seem to think its alright to be in charge and push women around, it makes me sick to think of all the violence and mistreatment these women are facing at the hands of their 'men'. In hindsight, I think women are fully capable of doing 'a man's job' and we shouldn't be degraded because of our size or pre-existing stature in places such as the business world and economic industries. I hate to think that men automatically assume they are the ones in control of everything and that its in their primordial instincts to govern women around, because that's horrible. Men have no right to power over women and use their physical strength to dominate us. I just wish everything had justice in this world and it was possible to live without unruly pain and suffering.

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Delayed

Why is it that people these days seem do be doing less of the things they planned out to do? Have we just become more accustomed to putting things off because of the ease that goes along with putting things aside? It's like so many things in life have lost their own significant value, all because of peoples lack of motivation, persistence and self adherence to the task they set out to do. And why is this? Well, most people just blame the 'delayed' approach to things because of their lives becoming more busier and they just dont have the time anymore. It's sad to think that some people are being held back in life because of first and foremost - work commitments, which seem to be more and more demanding for everyone these days, which is where the time consumption comes in. Then secondly, most people have other personal restrictions that hinder their chance of completing things, such as sickness and their psychological state, which definitely plays a distinct role in our individual response to certain situations. But for me, it's.........FEAR! The feeling of uncertainty and being scared of the outcome is what holds me back the most! I hate the feeling of not knowing how something's going to work out or what's going to happen. It scares me to think of everything i have missed out on because i've let something little, like fear, control what i've previously planned out to do. I wish fear didnt hold me back and make me the shy person i am. I want to live life with my fullest potential and not allow anything to stand my ground. If only life was much more simplified and risks weren't so oblivious and dangerous, then perhaps alot more people would be living life in the same fashion - Happy:)

Sticks and Stones < / 3

The meaning behind the quote ‘sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me’ has always pondered in my mind, like I’ve never really understood how that works. Cuz sure, people can hurt you physically and cause outward pain, but nine times out of ten this kind of pain heals. Then on the other scale we have words, things said to us that can cause inward, emotional pain which leads to the scaring of one’s self esteem, personality and ultimately alter who they are in general. In reality, it’s the words that we hear off other people that will hurt us the most in the long run, because it is these duelings forsaken upon us which are never easily passed aside and therefor, stay with us forever and its a matter of time until you have some sort of constant reminder that will bring you back to the pain you were once given. Is it wrong to teach such a quarreled and unjustified reason to not let words hurt you? just because you dont always see the pain on the inside, so you instantly presume that physical pain is worse. But in the end, both physical and emotional pain will hurt you, and its only you who can deal with it in whichever way you do! And perhaps, one over the other is harder for you to cope with, but i think its wrong to say words dont hurt, when they fucking do.

Come Aboard My Friend-ship:)

You know that feeling you get when you're so sad that you think nothing will make you feel better? But then, miraculously someone comes along and instantly makes you feel much happier? Well, this pretty much sums up Sharon:) She has the heart of an angel! And the ability to understand whatever is going on with me. She's the one i always feel dead comfortable with and i know i can tell her anything, she has my back and ill always have hers(F) Sharon is seriously a special person, a special friend, and most of all a special best friend.
I don't know what i would do without her tbh, all i know is that my days would be alot sadder and my life would be alot gloomier. There is no extent to how much i care about her and what i would do to help her! Thanks for everything babe, i love you lots

ECG

What's an ECG i hear you ask? Well it's basically just an acronyn Echocardiogram:) Ha, don't ya just love medical words lol so lovely tbh. Anyways, i had to go get one of these ECG's yesterday, which i was utterly terrified about cuz i didnt know what to expect or anything:S Ughh && ive been having such bad heart pains for the past few months that i decided that i better go to the doctors about it, so i did and she recommended i go to a cardiologist and get it proper checked out, which is what led me to get the ECG. Carrying on, i went to the Heart centre, which instantly made me feel more uncomfortable cuz i was seriously the youngest there, and probs by 50 years or so. I felt dead good Whoop! Not. Well i waited and waited in the waiting room for ages, and finally got called into the doctors room and the first thing she said was she was 'Okay, please have a seat Shawny and take ur clothes from the waist up completely off' and i was thinking 'i just met you woman, dont ya wanna ask how i am first or something' haha, but yea that didnt happen. Next i had to lay on the bed while she hooked me up to all these cords and shit lol then she put all this gel on my chest, which was dead cold! brr. That probs took her 5mins or so and while she was doing all that she was like asking me questions about what drinks i like, what pain i get and general things about school and that. She was really nice, but it was awkward talking to her while she was fiddling round with me being 1/2 naked as i was lol:D good times. When i was all ready, she sat at the computer next to me and started the ECG,which involves one of them imaging devices, idk what they are called lmao but they use them for ultra sounds in pregnant women. It was really cool seeing my heart working up on the screen with my valves moving and seeing my blood travel through my heart,i was like 'Yay im alive' but yea, she kept moving around my chest to get different views of my heart and taking images of it, aswell as my aorta. Then when she was done she got me to get dressed, but silly me forget to wipe the gel off me. The doctor came back in with another specialist and they went over what they found and only told me that i have a systolic heart murmur, which basically means my heart isnt pushing sufficient blood out, if ya get what i mean. Its nothing too serious, but the doctor also thinks something might be wrong with my lungs too or something,,cuz he cant explain the pains i get. So yeah, im going back to my normal doctor soon and hopefully they can find out whats wrong with me. Ciao