Come Aboard My Friend-ship:)

You know that feeling you get when you're so sad that you think nothing will make you feel better? But then, miraculously someone comes along and instantly makes you feel much happier? Well, this pretty much sums up Sharon:) She has the heart of an angel! And the ability to understand whatever is going on with me. She's the one i always feel dead comfortable with and i know i can tell her anything, she has my back and ill always have hers(F) Sharon is seriously a special person, a special friend, and most of all a special best friend.
I don't know what i would do without her tbh, all i know is that my days would be alot sadder and my life would be alot gloomier. There is no extent to how much i care about her and what i would do to help her! Thanks for everything babe, i love you lots

ECG

What's an ECG i hear you ask? Well it's basically just an acronyn Echocardiogram:) Ha, don't ya just love medical words lol so lovely tbh. Anyways, i had to go get one of these ECG's yesterday, which i was utterly terrified about cuz i didnt know what to expect or anything:S Ughh && ive been having such bad heart pains for the past few months that i decided that i better go to the doctors about it, so i did and she recommended i go to a cardiologist and get it proper checked out, which is what led me to get the ECG. Carrying on, i went to the Heart centre, which instantly made me feel more uncomfortable cuz i was seriously the youngest there, and probs by 50 years or so. I felt dead good Whoop! Not. Well i waited and waited in the waiting room for ages, and finally got called into the doctors room and the first thing she said was she was 'Okay, please have a seat Shawny and take ur clothes from the waist up completely off' and i was thinking 'i just met you woman, dont ya wanna ask how i am first or something' haha, but yea that didnt happen. Next i had to lay on the bed while she hooked me up to all these cords and shit lol then she put all this gel on my chest, which was dead cold! brr. That probs took her 5mins or so and while she was doing all that she was like asking me questions about what drinks i like, what pain i get and general things about school and that. She was really nice, but it was awkward talking to her while she was fiddling round with me being 1/2 naked as i was lol:D good times. When i was all ready, she sat at the computer next to me and started the ECG,which involves one of them imaging devices, idk what they are called lmao but they use them for ultra sounds in pregnant women. It was really cool seeing my heart working up on the screen with my valves moving and seeing my blood travel through my heart,i was like 'Yay im alive' but yea, she kept moving around my chest to get different views of my heart and taking images of it, aswell as my aorta. Then when she was done she got me to get dressed, but silly me forget to wipe the gel off me. The doctor came back in with another specialist and they went over what they found and only told me that i have a systolic heart murmur, which basically means my heart isnt pushing sufficient blood out, if ya get what i mean. Its nothing too serious, but the doctor also thinks something might be wrong with my lungs too or something,,cuz he cant explain the pains i get. So yeah, im going back to my normal doctor soon and hopefully they can find out whats wrong with me. Ciao

Whats the big deal?

Why are people so concerned about the idea of Death? It has like become such a taboo subject these days, that no-one ever talks about anymore && i dont understand why!! Its like people just want to ignore it and think that they can avoid it or something, which is totally stupid. Its really like the only certain thing we have in our lives. Death is pretty much something we cant prevent, like sure we can delay our death when we are sick by getting treatment, but we arent really stopping someone from dying, but rather only prolonging it. ANDDDDDDDDDDD, i hate when people say they dont want to die. Like i understand its sad to think ur gonna be dead one day and cease to live, but i see it as the most peaceful and beautiful thing. Only when a person has died do we really look back and appreciate their life. Also, once you are dead there is no worrying, no hurt and pain or having any other feelings for that matter. In death, we are in a state where everything is out of our hands and there is nothing left for us to do. I know that we all have to die in order for new life to begin, its like the circle of life, we must die so life can start for something else. Im pretty sure life is much harder than death aswell, && i'd rather die then to be born and start life again. In life, we have to deal with so many problems and obstacles, but on the other hand life can be the most brilliant thing and give us so many things to enjoy. One thing i want people to take on aboard is that you shouldnt worry if you dont get to do or experience everything you want before you die, because once you are dead, there is no thinking and there is no worrying. You are DEAD and therefor doesnt matter because you cant think about anything. Anyways, i think its lucky to be able to experience death, because not everyone gets the chance to be born and live, so i am lucky to be able to live and then die.

Hurry up

Okay, i have this geography assignment thats due on like the 28th and i havent even started yet, ugh! Im really think im like the worst person at starting shit cuz i honestly can never be bothered and that goes for everything like im last to finish classwork off the board, the last one to finish my lunch and last one still laughing after a joke. I should really be more motivated when im doing things lol i proper lack any form of enthusiasm(N) Anyways, this fucking geography assignment has been torturing me for the past 5months, && yea i know what ur thinking 'you should be well finished if you've had it that long' but thats not me. i leave everything to the last minute and like i said before, last to finish everything. Grr its such a bad habit tbh.
Well carrying on, the assignment is like a case study on a local natural disaster, so i chose to do the floods, cuz we've already had like 3 this year lol im pretty sure thats probs what everyone is doing theres on but whatever. Im not allowed to have anyone help me which is shit cuz i dont know how to start it! i really should have seen my teacher about it, atleast he could have helped me ay.

Armidale - Day Two

Well the second day at Armidale began perfectly! firstly i woke up at like 8am and washed my face, then ate breakfast. Mmm Nutrigrain:) After brekky Mum and i organised our shit and cleaned up the motel room a bit. So after packing our things we put our bags in the car and we were all set to go for our day out on the town(Y) But that ended up being a problem cuz the car had been covered in a layer of ice and wouldnt start, grr so shit and that left us stranded at the motel for like an hour while just waiting for the NRMA to come help us. It was like 9:30am before we could go anywhere lol mum hadda get a new battery for her car which cost $140. But despite that we were both in a relatively good mood and i suggested we go feed the kangaroos, so we drove out to the corner store and bought a loaf of bread and continued to drive out to the uni. When we got to the uni we went to the fence of the kangaroo enclosure but no kangaroos were willing to come over. so i threw a piece of bread over and one kangaroo managed to come over, aww it was so cute watching it hop along over and when it got close enough i saw that it had a joey in its pouch and i was like 'awwww' cuz it would have only been a couple of weeks old, anyways the kangaroo ate about 8 pieces of bread ay. I also had to feed these 2 ducks cuz they kept creeping up on me lmao. I went "Quack" and they both fluttered off into the lake. Next me and Mum went out to the mall, to go shopping again, where i only bought a top and headband from supre then had a quick squizz at a few other shops. Well it was reaching noon at this point and mum was real hesitant to leave to go back home shortly cuz she didnt want to drive down the mountain at night. But i asked if we could go to the park which was just near our motel and she was like 'yeaa, but not for long' so off we went to the park and i was like 'hooray' cuz the park was total mint and had heaps of swings and spinning things. i really wish i was like 7 again. Despite it being only 11degrees i swung on the swing for longer than i probs should have cuz after i stopped i was so dizzy tbh. but i still managed to just gaze at beauty which i call Armidale(Y) At 12:30 we left for home, with me driving, Yeww. I think we were like 15mins into the drive and i was busting for the toilet and course being in the middle of no-where there was no toilets so i was forced to stop on the side of the road and do a pee, but i think that was like the 5th time i did pee on the side of the road during my time away. anyways it was madd fun driving round the corners go well above 100km p/h. im pretty pleased with myself that i didnt crash. Tss! It was 2:30 when we stopped at a place called Dorrigo where we ate lunch. After eating mum continued with the driving and right near Dorrigo falls there was this massive car crash, the cops were there aswell. i hope everyone was alright ay:| Cuz its pretty dangerous the road heading down the mountain which is the reason mum didnt want me driving. Anyways we got home safely at 4:34pm && even though we didnt do much on out holiday i really had a great time just hanging out with my mum and enjoying her company, cuz i dont get alot of that and having her completely to myself for 2 days got me to appreciate her so much more and to be alot closer to her, which is the main point. We had alot of laughs together along the way and i hope me and my mum can share more moments like this together another time.

Armidale - Day One.

Well im in Armidale:) Which is like 4hours drive west from where i live in Toormina. My Mum and I left yesterday morning at 6am and got here at 10:30 && omg it was such a beautiful drive here ay but there was heaps of road kill along the way, which was not cool. We went straight to our motel and unpacked. Then drove out to the uni i wanna go to after school and when i saw it i was like 'yewww' cuz im total in love with it. There is just acres and acres of grassy hills and trees surrounding the uni and there is a paddock out back with like 40+ kangaroos. So after looking around at the uni we decided to go shopping but we had to park like a block away from the mall cuz the streets were full of cars. So yea, walking to the mall was so beautiful too cuz there was these girls who were like maybe 10 or 11 who were playing the violin and then this other boy playing the trumpet and i was like 'awww they are so good!! and when we got to the mall we went shopping lol basically in every store i reckon lol and all the people inside were all dead nice, which is good. & i found this heaps mint store called 'Ally' www.allyfashion.com where i bought boots, leggings, a jumper and a dress from(L) Anyways, Armidale is only a country town so there isnt much to do in terms of entertainment or anything but just the surroundings are enough to satisfy you. In the afternoon we decided to go to the cemetery cuz mum wanted to go see her grandparents and that, it took us like half and hour to find their graves but once we did i felt such a sense of sadness with my mum and let me tell you shes not really a person to show her emotions. so that made me sad. I think we spent like an hour there altogether looking at all the graves of other people. After being at the cemetery we went for a drive to a place called Uralla which is like 20mins from Armidale and then drove back to the motel but we got total lost on the way so funny. I think it was like 5pm by this time and the sun had set and omg was it cold already, i was freezing so i decided to have a shower and im pretty sure i burnt my head with hot water. Then at like 6pm we went out for dinner at Wicklow's which had heating 'wooooo' so good. well there i ordered a chicken burger and when it came out i was like 'holy shit, its huge' but i managed to eat it all(Y) and throw down a McFlurry with it lmao. Then when we left and walked to the car some older guys were trying to hit on me and whistling at me. But yea, i was too tired to respond. We got back to the motel when it was like 7pm and went straight to bed and was probs asleep well before half past 7.

Inappropriate?

What is wrong with today's society? Everywhere i look there is something thats about sex. Like every magazine i see its top topics are about sex, these are on kids magazines aswell. Like yea, kids should know about it but this much exposer cant be good. Almost every movie and TV show has some aspect of sex in it. What ever happened to the days when sex was just a sacred and special thing between two married people? If you just type 'sex' into Google the first site that shows up is a full on porn site, one that anyone can access. I dont understand it! People should just have more respect for themselves instead of getting off on watching others having sex. Half the people that watch porn are probs pervs or old men who cant get any for themself. Oh, && child pornography!!! that is dead sick and really sad! I honestly think people could do other things with their spare time instead of trying to sell sex, watching porn and advertising sex to anyone. Its not on! seriously.

The Beginning:)

Hey, I'm Shawny:) && im only new to blogging! Ive always wanted to have a blog though cuz i think its a great way to share how you're feeling or about whats going on in your life, just things like that yea. Im not much of a writer or anything, but i do have alot on my mind and im always thinking. So yea, for my first entry i just want to like introduce myself and write things about my life just so you can all get to know me. Well, to start off im from Australia. I love living here! The people and the atmosphere here is so friendly and everything's cool. I love going to the beach, ive tried to surf, but im not that good at it i must admit lol but its cool just to go there and swim and have fun. Ive grown up pretty quickly in life i think. My childhood wasnt the best one, i have been through so many things and seen so much that i dont wish for any other person to go through. but i think my past has made me such a stronger person today. which is a good thing, im hoping. I dont talk about my past much cuz things like that just get me down, and for now im just really interested in my future cuz things can only get better! Anyways Im in grade 11 at Toormina High, and ofcourse i want to go to university. im still deciding what course(s) i should do there. My brother is already at Uni down in Canberra (the capital of Australia) He's coming home to visit in like 2 weeks i think it is, which is just after his birthday. its too bad he cant be here for his 19th birthday. Me and him are really close, i miss him so much, he's my favourite person in the world! My friends mean everything to me aswell, like they get me through the days at school. We all have so much fun together hanging out, going shopping or just roaming the streets pretending to be terrorists(Y) I believe in God, but im not one of them religious people who are all like 'you have to believe in God and follow my faith or you will go to hell' cuz thats so unreasonable. i believe every person has the right to make the choice to believe in whatever they want and i wont pressure them into something different cuz thats not my business. Thats just a lil intro into my life:) Ciao.